I am really being put to the test these days. I am being challenged in every way I know on how to carry and express love for someone who is foreseeably unlovable. I’ll admit, I’m doing a pretty sucky job.

Here’s what happens. Despite my ingrained belief to love all, serve all… not give love with expectation or requirement of receiving love back… knowing two wrongs don’t make a right… and every other cliche surrounding loving the right way I can think of, I just can’t do it. I’m stuck.

I’m stuck in my own head which is making me stuck in my heart. I need help. I need help convincing myself that every person and every thing deserves my love, despite how wretched the receiver might be. I need help quieting the voice inside that tells me to fight hate with hate. I need help remembering that my love is abundant and infinite and that there is no loss of self if I choose to love the unlovable.

And then I need help executing my new thoughts and beliefs into action. I need to wrap my figurative arms around this person who knows no love and wants no love, anyway… not because I feel I can save her, but to save myself… to preserve my truth in love.

So this post is my public commitment to think and do all of these things. It is this community of sister (and the few brothers with us) hood, that I can draw strength and find accountability to defy my own odds, all the while creating new ones and astounding my own limits. If you too have a seemingly unlovable person in your life, join me in showing them love anyway. Let’s rise up so that we can contribute to changing our emotional atmospheres, no matter what teeny tiny difference we think it might make. Let’s walk in love.

Whereas I cannot, yet, see the lovability in this person and to do so would be inauthentic, today, what I can do is begin conquering my dislike with love by sending a simple, silent blessing of love and light to her. And I will. Because today I will be bigger than my less good self.

Live and love largely,
Tristan